I met a former coworker to talk about a potential job, today. Despite it sounding somewhat interesting, and not completely outside of my domain, it is another remote-only position and that just doesn't work for me, these days (unless it is in the centre of my domain, maybe).

I feel bad wasting the time of people who seem to be interesting and busy but it was also good to see her. I miss getting to have interesting technical conversations with people and, although she isn't deep into the technical side, she is an "ambitious jack-of-all-trades" in a technical field so she does at least understand that angle and find it interesting.

I am really not sure what is next for me as it is increasingly obvious that I no longer fit into this world. I barely did, to start with, and it has only gone down-hill from there.

I miss getting to work with people, but working remotely isn't "with" anyone. It seems like the modern world is increasingly populated by artificial facsimiles of things I remember existing in the world.

The shade doesn't feel the same under fake plastic trees,
...Nights