Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.

This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.

Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
E-Mail Protection Rackets (on May 15, 2025, 10:59:52 p.m.)
Got an E-Mail from someone today who said we knew each other back in the Ottawa days. I don't remember the name but I don't normally expect to so I tried to respond.

Well, that was rejected since their E-Mail provider has decided that they need [...]
Half a Litre of Blood Later (on May 15, 2025, 10:53:57 p.m.)
Finally got around to making a blood donation, today. This is the first time since the 90s.

What changed this time? I finally decided to go up to Yonge and Bloor, since King is always booked up whenever I check it.

It is funny that it has been [...]
Re: My attempt to branch out (on May 9, 2025, 12:02:59 p.m.)
Hmm, hopefully those outings work well. In this day and age, anything we can do to get out of our spaces and interact with real people is a good thing.
Re: Writing Letters (on May 9, 2025, 12:02:17 p.m.)
It is surprising how different it feels in the mind to write versus type. I hope that I can keep this up and find a sense of "mindfulness" from it.
Writing Letters (on May 4, 2025, 2:57:33 a.m.)
Today was a rough day, since I seem to be getting that "emotional drop" more severely as time goes on. It was great to be out with people, last night, so being alone today left me feeling an odd kind of despair. I think it is because I get so [...]
Made in Canada listing (on May 1, 2025, 5:23:33 p.m.)
I remember this site popping up a few years ago but I can't remember why. It was good back then and it is still good now: Made in CA (linked in context). Given the current state of international trade/relations, this is more valuable than ever. [...]
The Long Dark is pretty neat (on Apr. 28, 2025, 3:20:35 p.m.)
Given that I quite like survival games, these days, I have had my eye on The Long Dark for a while. Sure, it isn't as open-ended as some of these games (you can't really progress beyond a basic survival sort of mode), but it has a neat environment [...]
Re: Cobwebs and Crickets (on Apr. 20, 2025, 11:32:47 p.m.)
Probably. That is what I find is usually the case with whatever I am trying to do.

Of course, it also depends on sources of inspiration, I suppose.
Re: Cat and box (on Apr. 18, 2025, 6:50:01 p.m.)
Aww, he is always such a cute and alert kitty. I hope that he is doing well.
Re: Cobwebs and Crickets (on Apr. 18, 2025, 6:49:28 p.m.)
Good to hear that you are finding some inspiration to write.

I do wonder if that general feeling of uninspired emptiness is becoming more common since it is much of why I am not doing much writing, either. "Defacto retired" is definitely a term I [...]
A Delicate Flame (on Apr. 11, 2025, 11:54:33 p.m.)
Pacing through the sanctum beneath the tower, I cannot focus my thoughts to do anything useful. This has been a growing problem, of late.

I sit down in one of the low arm-chairs, outstretch my hand, and focus on a story I haven't heard in a long [...]
Re: Minecraft Movie (on Apr. 11, 2025, 4:26:56 p.m.)
Ah, I see. I guess that would count as a loom but, in my mind, that always conjures up one of those big weaving looms with programmable cards, etc.

It reminds me of a "corking set" (I think that is what it was called) which I had when I was a kid. [...]
Bad sleep but work getting done (on Apr. 9, 2025, 8:38:12 p.m.)
I think that all the required library-level work for the next release is done (unless I run into any bugs while completing the client-side work).

The lighting optimization was a big win (and the corresponding refactoring made that part of the code [...]
Re: Minecraft Movie (on Apr. 7, 2025, 9:24:18 p.m.)
Yeah, I have heard that it is ok in that it is pretty much a movie for kids with lots of references to in-game concepts and history and doesn't try to do much beyond that (which is probably exactly what it should be - hence why it is doing well). [...]
Re: Trying to Socialize Again (on Apr. 7, 2025, 9:21:19 p.m.)
It seems to just be a problem in how IPFS builds its swarm and index. It seems like sometimes it just takes a very long time to find something. You can usually identify that something like this might be causing a problem with the "Users you [...]
Re: Energy Levels and Complicated Optimizations (on Apr. 4, 2025, 9:03:22 p.m.)
I found a new way to think about that lighting optimization problem which actually allowed me to simplify some of the SpeculativeProjection. I got that merged yesterday and it gave a 30% savings to the micro-bench and seemed to remove the [...]
Re: Trying to Socialize Again (on Apr. 3, 2025, 1:34:27 a.m.)
I am still around but haven't been doing much so I don't have much to say. Working on the OP optimization which is mostly implemented and preliminary results are very promising.

Those PSW organizations are unusually bad at scheduling their people. [...]
Energy Levels and Complicated Optimizations (on Mar. 31, 2025, 9:21:40 p.m.)
I really need this winter to finally end. I need to get out and get some exercise, sunlight, and human contact (even if just in passing).

This winter has been rough. Between the usual lack of meaning, the constant feeling of the walls closing in [...]
Re: What now? (on Mar. 26, 2025, 8:53:53 p.m.)
Wow, good to hear that this is moving closer to being completed. Being stuck in that "in-between state" can be stressful and tiring.
Energy Level (on Mar. 25, 2025, 9:48:20 p.m.)
Work on the next OP release is moving along, although slowly. The last bits of that cold are taking a long time to fully work their way through and the weather has likely been keeping my energy level down (well, that and the news being consistently [...]
Re: Can I recover yet? (on Mar. 23, 2025, 10:48:47 p.m.)
Probably some kind of cold.

I suspect that the difference in how late this came on, and how the symptoms played out, is likely due to it being a different kind of cold virus (since there are several).

Sinuses are still a little odd but I have [...]
Re: Part 2 (on Mar. 19, 2025, 9:39:48 p.m.)
This is a good picture. I hope that you are doing ok.
Can I recover yet? (on Mar. 19, 2025, 5:28:58 p.m.)
I don't know what this illness is but, despite feeling better 2 days ago, yesterday was pretty rough. Today is seeming better, but we will see how this goes since I am no longer sure.

At least it was nice to get that OctoberProject release done. [...]
Re: House and babies. (on Mar. 17, 2025, 2:29:31 a.m.)
I didn't realize gender reveal parties were still a thing or were all that common when that fad was in full swing (back before that one sparked a huge wildfire).

Good to hear that the house is on the market. Hopefully you guys get a serious offer [...]
Re: Is this aging? (on Mar. 17, 2025, 2:22:01 a.m.)
Today seemed to be better. Just a bit of a headache by this point, really. My mass seemed to jump back up to the normal range, today, too.

I usually consider myself "sick" if I have a fever (unless I just received a vaccine) so that is my once [...]