Moonless Nights
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Description:
My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.

This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.

Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
That Heat (on Jun. 24, 2025, 8:53:06 p.m.)
This heat wave has been pretty crazy. I wonder if it is at all related to my strange sleeping lately: Not able to sleep for longer than about 5-6 hours but then exhausted every evening (more than usual). It might just be mental state, or [...]
Re: Found a safe space here. (on Jun. 10, 2025, 7:44:04 p.m.)
After a couple days of network visibility issues, I can see this.

I am happy to hear that you like writing in this space. It is completely public but you can only see responses from people you follow, there isn't really a chance of some strange [...]
Sun tiredness? (on Jun. 2, 2025, 10:00:07 p.m.)
Spent some time reading in the park, today, since it was warm-ish and I should spend some more time outside.

After coming back inside, I felt incredibly tired. I wonder if that is related to getting too much sun when I am not used to it.

In any [...]
Re: Decided to get my hair layered and shortened today. (on Jun. 2, 2025, 9:51:37 p.m.)
That looks pretty good and must be easier to manage in the summer.

As for me, I still haven't cut my hair in nearly 22 years. I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing.
Re: Should I be worried about grey hair? (on May 28, 2025, 10:19:52 a.m.)
I wouldn't worry too much about grey hair. When I was younger, I always told people that they will know I have become annoyed with the grey when they see me show up with jet black hair. Now that I am older, I don't really care (or at least don't [...]
Re: Playing with Fire (on May 22, 2025, 2:05:35 a.m.)
Yeah, it definitely sounds like you were feeling frustration with things.

Interesting way of looking at things, in our world of isolation, that all of our friends are musicians since music is constant for so many people.
With Sage-like Sway (on May 21, 2025, 12:19:58 a.m.)
One of the things which bothers me about myself is that I am still not very good and keeping my cool. It bothers me when someone says something which upsets me and I speak up to confront them.

I guess I think that resistance must be stated and [...]
Re: Ultrasound, weekend plans, art (on May 16, 2025, 8:14:56 p.m.)
Good to hear that there is nothing too bad in any immediate sense. Worth seeing if they say anything useful in terms of ways to resolve that or at least manage it.

Have a good weekend and enjoy your food and family visits.
Re: E-Mail Protection Rackets (on May 16, 2025, 8:12:14 p.m.)
I eventually remembered someone by that name, who I did know way back in the day, so I assume it is them.

Eventually, after a few tries, the mail did go through.

I know that I sometimes get a bizarre pseudo-bounce when I reply to you, where it [...]
Re: My attempt to branch out (on May 16, 2025, 8:10:08 p.m.)
That sounds good. Network was being odd so I didn't see this right away.

I have been ok and trying to get out a bit more, even if just to walk around the area in the warm weather. Of course, this weekend will set that back, by the looks of it [...]
E-Mail Protection Rackets (on May 15, 2025, 10:59:52 p.m.)
Got an E-Mail from someone today who said we knew each other back in the Ottawa days. I don't remember the name but I don't normally expect to so I tried to respond.

Well, that was rejected since their E-Mail provider has decided that they need [...]
Half a Litre of Blood Later (on May 15, 2025, 10:53:57 p.m.)
Finally got around to making a blood donation, today. This is the first time since the 90s.

What changed this time? I finally decided to go up to Yonge and Bloor, since King is always booked up whenever I check it.

It is funny that it has been [...]
Re: My attempt to branch out (on May 9, 2025, 12:02:59 p.m.)
Hmm, hopefully those outings work well. In this day and age, anything we can do to get out of our spaces and interact with real people is a good thing.
Re: Writing Letters (on May 9, 2025, 12:02:17 p.m.)
It is surprising how different it feels in the mind to write versus type. I hope that I can keep this up and find a sense of "mindfulness" from it.
Writing Letters (on May 4, 2025, 2:57:33 a.m.)
Today was a rough day, since I seem to be getting that "emotional drop" more severely as time goes on. It was great to be out with people, last night, so being alone today left me feeling an odd kind of despair. I think it is because I get so [...]
Made in Canada listing (on May 1, 2025, 5:23:33 p.m.)
I remember this site popping up a few years ago but I can't remember why. It was good back then and it is still good now: Made in CA (linked in context). Given the current state of international trade/relations, this is more valuable than ever. [...]
The Long Dark is pretty neat (on Apr. 28, 2025, 3:20:35 p.m.)
Given that I quite like survival games, these days, I have had my eye on The Long Dark for a while. Sure, it isn't as open-ended as some of these games (you can't really progress beyond a basic survival sort of mode), but it has a neat environment [...]
Re: Cobwebs and Crickets (on Apr. 20, 2025, 11:32:47 p.m.)
Probably. That is what I find is usually the case with whatever I am trying to do.

Of course, it also depends on sources of inspiration, I suppose.
Re: Cat and box (on Apr. 18, 2025, 6:50:01 p.m.)
Aww, he is always such a cute and alert kitty. I hope that he is doing well.
Re: Cobwebs and Crickets (on Apr. 18, 2025, 6:49:28 p.m.)
Good to hear that you are finding some inspiration to write.

I do wonder if that general feeling of uninspired emptiness is becoming more common since it is much of why I am not doing much writing, either. "Defacto retired" is definitely a term I [...]
A Delicate Flame (on Apr. 11, 2025, 11:54:33 p.m.)
Pacing through the sanctum beneath the tower, I cannot focus my thoughts to do anything useful. This has been a growing problem, of late.

I sit down in one of the low arm-chairs, outstretch my hand, and focus on a story I haven't heard in a long [...]
Re: Minecraft Movie (on Apr. 11, 2025, 4:26:56 p.m.)
Ah, I see. I guess that would count as a loom but, in my mind, that always conjures up one of those big weaving looms with programmable cards, etc.

It reminds me of a "corking set" (I think that is what it was called) which I had when I was a kid. [...]
Bad sleep but work getting done (on Apr. 9, 2025, 8:38:12 p.m.)
I think that all the required library-level work for the next release is done (unless I run into any bugs while completing the client-side work).

The lighting optimization was a big win (and the corresponding refactoring made that part of the code [...]
Re: Minecraft Movie (on Apr. 7, 2025, 9:24:18 p.m.)
Yeah, I have heard that it is ok in that it is pretty much a movie for kids with lots of references to in-game concepts and history and doesn't try to do much beyond that (which is probably exactly what it should be - hence why it is doing well). [...]
Re: Trying to Socialize Again (on Apr. 7, 2025, 9:21:19 p.m.)
It seems to just be a problem in how IPFS builds its swarm and index. It seems like sometimes it just takes a very long time to find something. You can usually identify that something like this might be causing a problem with the "Users you [...]