I feel like I am losing my mind and my health more rapidly than usual, these days. I am not sure if it is the result of the shift in the weather, how long I have spent toiling in futility and irrelevance, or just the usual march of age.

As a result, I am making more of an effort to get out to socialize in larger groups whenever I can. I worry that this means I am not properly maintaining my existing close connections but I feel as though this current state is not so steady.

I miss talking to people and I miss having something to look forward to,
...Nights