Illusions of Humanity and the Reminders of Fear

Since it has been warmer, I have been trying to get out of the apartment, both for exercise but also in search of a sense of "humanization". However, I have been having some difficulties with the latter.

Today, I was again reminded that the only [...]

Re: Out of the fog...

Good to hear that the medication is helping your mental focus, that much.

It is interesting that you mentioned dehydration since that is the first thing I wondered about when you mentioned unstable blood pressure. I don't know how often those [...]

The failed sage

For some time now, I have been atop my mountain. Despite being some distance from the world, its sounds still permeate the place and break my fragile concentration. I too quickly succumb to its distractions, even though they are merely the [...]

What you recognize as a Canadian under Americanized global culture

I heard that a game called "The Long Dark" is good in the genre of open-world survival, which I am quite into, these days. Looking it up, it has a Linux version of Steam so I decided to watch a video from a content creator I like (Pr1vate Lime) [...]

Oddly uninspired

Really haven't been feeling up to much, the past week or so, and I am not sure why. Nothing is unusually off, aside from some small things, so everything should be fine.

I have even been getting out for 1-2 hour walks, most of the past several [...]

Management and Madness

I find it strange and unsettling how more and more of our society is becoming "managed". This takes a few forms.

An obvious one is related to basic human interaction, and this one is has been noticed by others, too. This is using things like [...]

Re: Mobility Devices

It definitely does sound like the walker would give you better mobility than any kind of wheelchair, motorized or manual. As long as you can make it work, it at least seems like a good idea (no dependency on ramps or weather conditions).

Slow work, new game, and new boots

Work on the next milestone for OctoberProject is slow-going since I keep second-guessing whether I am approaching this the right way (a common problem). I _think_ I am approaching this in a reasonable way, but I will need to mostly complete the [...]

Re: :P

Ha, classic! When I was younger, I was actually in favour of this sort of "compound" living arrangement but I eventually realized that it wouldn't really work since moving in/out of a place is usually incredibly complicated. Hence, while I used to [...]

Re: Misfortune Cookies.

Those look pretty funny, but look like a lot of packaging. I wonder how the flavour differs versus fortune cookies or if it is just a black food dye added to a similar cookie.

Re: Disability

The eclipse will be pretty neat. It is just too bad we will only see 99.9% totality from Toronto (even Hamilton gets a minute or so of totality). It won't really be practical to head over there for just a few minutes of uncommon darkness when lots [...]

Undertow

Last night was mostly pretty good until... something odd happened.

For some reason, something largely innocuous (sure, it is something which annoys me, but not in any big way) caused me to suddenly shift into a strangely angry mode where I began [...]

Re: Jason

Hmm, interesting that it was a non-hierarchical group, since it seems so common for people claiming to be polyamorous seem to structure their relationships as very traditional monogamous hierarchies. Still, I always worry about "safe spaces", since [...]

Re: Supersex

Hmm, never heard of that. It just makes me think of a strip club in Montreal (the only time I ever went to one). Interesting to know that is who "Italian Stallion" original referenced. The only other name I remember being associated with that was [...]

Re: Briscola and Martenitsa (Flower Essence Workshop)

That approach sounds interesting. It is good to hear that you are feeling a bit better, with regard to this.

Re: Connecting

If you feel like getting back into the weekly calls, we can give OctoberProject a quick shot and then jump back into TFC, just to hang out for a bit.

Re: grief counselling options

Hmm, I am sorry to hear that things are so difficult, right now.

If it is of any use, you can always text/E-Mail me. I am often free for a call, too.

I know that I am not trained how to help so I might not be useful in this situation but I can at [...]

Re: Netflix and Chill

Sounds like quite a lot going on. Good to hear that you are keeping busy.

When is that move, again?

Re: Officially Unemployed

Hmm, I hope that you aren't too disappointed by that news. It is always an unpleasant situation.

Re: IPFS works.

Ah, good to hear that the technical issue got sorted out! I suspect something was probably just in a "stuck" or otherwise bogus state and finally finished failing such that it could be restarted, or something.

Good to have you back.

Lingering cold

Pretty crazy how I felt myself getting sick 2 weeks ago and that seemed to run its course within a couple of days but some of the symptoms still haven't fully cleared up.

I vaguely recall this being more common in the past, where I would have some [...]

Illness.... again?

Throat started to feel like something was going on yesterday afternoon and sure enough I have the body aches and the slight chill of an incoming fever, tonight.

This is frustrating since I was going to do a grocery run as I used up the last of my [...]

Strangely unsettled

I am relieved to see that it is warming up. Once it is warm enough for walks in my Vibrams, I need to get out of here. I do feel as though I may be losing my mind.

Of course, there is always that growing sense of worry about those around me, too, [...]

Re: 2 years

That is so rough to hear that this happened. I do hope that you are ok. It was good to meet on the server, today, to know that you are managing.

Re: Support group.

Hmm, doesn't sound like it was too helpful to you. At least it sounds like you found at least one of the people interesting.

I always wonder how useful such support groups actually are for people.