Last night was a generally good night out but the ending of it did leave me feeling... unpleasant.

Late in the night, all the people I knew left to go do something else and didn't invite me along. I know that I am not essential for anything or even desirable company but it still stings to be reminded of that (although I should be used to it, by now).

On top of that, I made what is probably an insensitive comment to someone I didn't know well. Nothing harmful, but just a bit heavy for small talk.

The funny thing is that my comment was about how I feel afraid to talk about a lot of things in the current climate. The specific way I worded things, however, makes even criticizing this kind of blasphemy prohibition into an instance of the blasphemy (arguably - although it would be a thin argument).

So now I am alone, feeling like I have no strong connections to the people I see regularly, and afraid that I may have upset someone or might be excommunicated for blasphemy.

At least this weather is a nice change of pace after the intense week,
...Nights