Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
Game is getting there (on May 14, 2026, 10:54:13 p.m.)
The next OP release will be ready within the next few days but it is so far seeming pretty good. The new sub-block collision mechanism has improved the "feel" of playing the game, substantially (since you can now use things like stairs to walk out [...]
Re: Caboto Terrace - Dufferin and Lawrence. (on May 14, 2026, 1:06:08 a.m.)
The place looks nice (the floor is a nice style). Hopefully it is spacious enough for you and the heating is a decent price (looks electric).
I hope that everything comes through for you soon and that everything is a go for your move.
I hope that everything comes through for you soon and that everything is a go for your move.
The Blood (on May 11, 2026, 8:14:02 p.m.)
It seems like the nearby Canadian Blood Services building isn't booked solid for the next month (finally) so I decided to drop by since I haven't donated in about a year. I was waiting on my new donor card, which never came, but now seems like it [...]
No Big Plans (on May 11, 2026, 12:20:50 a.m.)
Despite not going out, this weekend, I still ended up feeling rough. Slept terribly on Friday night so I was a complete zombie all Saturday. Slept fine Saturday night (somehow) but still felt a little out of it on Sunday.
For some reason, I am [...]
For some reason, I am [...]
Doom of Dreams and Doom of Days (on May 7, 2026, 7:34:55 a.m.)
Slept poorly and woke up due to unsettling dreams. Now, having trouble getting back to sleep so I guess I will start the day a few hours early and hope that I am not too much of a zombie, later.
The dream was an unholy union of "stuck in [...]
The dream was an unholy union of "stuck in [...]
When I was Greater (on May 6, 2026, 1:47:02 a.m.)
I was recently reminded that I used to be inspired to write quasi-fictional little stories, from time to time. It was mostly just a melodramatic way of describing what was going on in my life or just in my mind. For some reason, I haven't done [...]
Re: Happy Star Wars Day (on May 4, 2026, 9:03:08 p.m.)
Religious rituals involving children are bizarre. On one hand, they are how culture is communicated to children, but on another hand they are often just using the child as a prop and it is more about other people demonstrating their commitment to [...]
Re: Postcards (on May 2, 2026, 7:57:14 p.m.)
I do find the postcards sent out by those organizations to try to get your attention for donations to be a very odd approach. Personally, I am not sure I have ever sent a postcard in my life.
That picture looks good, though. Is this a digital [...]
That picture looks good, though. Is this a digital [...]
Re: Simulation (on Apr. 30, 2026, 10:45:17 p.m.)
Interestingly, the question of the geometry of the universe (not the same as its shape, but similar) has recently come up against since some measurement showed a value which would be inconsistent with a flat (Euclidean) universal geometry. This is [...]
Of Pain and Paralysis (on Apr. 29, 2026, 11:06:40 p.m.)
I was recently thinking about the state of our culture and its bizarre anger, rules, and judgments and I started to realize that the problem I actually have in social interactions isn't that they aren't successful but that I don't even feel [...]
Re: Where I am right now. (on Apr. 29, 2026, 10:55:16 p.m.)
Much of the world does seem to be clouding focus to the point where it is hard to name which direction you want to go.
Re: Only some things "just work" and for how long (on Apr. 26, 2026, 10:42:14 p.m.)
Tubi is probably subject to the same kinds of distribution rights issues as other streaming services: They will only be allowed to distribute something for a certain time frame before they rights-holder sells it to another distributor. Their older [...]
Re: Scarborough Poetry Club Voices In Verse 8 (on Apr. 24, 2026, 8:54:05 p.m.)
It is good to hear that the reading went well and that you found a group where sharing these readings is something everyone involved enjoys and supports.
What is "UU congregation"? I have heard people generally say interesting things when [...]
What is "UU congregation"? I have heard people generally say interesting things when [...]
Only some things "just work" and for how long (on Apr. 15, 2026, 11:42:12 p.m.)
One of the many things which bothers me about the modern age is how almost everything seems like a step down from something we used to have.
For some reason (I know the reason, I just don't know why anyone goes along with it), almost everything [...]
For some reason (I know the reason, I just don't know why anyone goes along with it), almost everything [...]
Re: Working through anxiety (on Apr. 15, 2026, 11:27:09 p.m.)
Hmm, hopefully that therapist can help you deal with that anxiety since that is supposed to be the kind of thing they can help with. Would you at least feel comfortable with a walker, or even just walking unaided, while at home?
But yes, it will [...]
But yes, it will [...]
Re: Dying on the Vine (on Apr. 15, 2026, 11:21:45 p.m.)
It is crazy how the 90s were so good but now is so awful. I think that the 80s would have been pretty good, too.
Now, everything is somehow terrible, terrifying, or just boring and pointless.
As long as the land line isn't too expensive to [...]
Now, everything is somehow terrible, terrifying, or just boring and pointless.
As long as the land line isn't too expensive to [...]
Re: A reprieve from current days -- 90s music. (on Apr. 15, 2026, 11:16:58 p.m.)
A funny thing is that, just a week or two ago, I was on the subway and saw one of those poetry things in the ad spots which displayed a poem attributed to Rain Maida.
I did like Our Lady Peace, back in the 90s, and I went to a live show they [...]
I did like Our Lady Peace, back in the 90s, and I went to a live show they [...]
Dying on the Vine (on Apr. 12, 2026, 11:56:56 p.m.)
It is strange to look back on my life, at this point.
I spent the vast majority of my life looking forward to the future. After all, I didn't really like the present but the future promised so much more. As bizarre as it sounds, I was right... [...]
I spent the vast majority of my life looking forward to the future. After all, I didn't really like the present but the future promised so much more. As bizarre as it sounds, I was right... [...]
Re: Poetry readings and kitty (on Apr. 12, 2026, 4:15:04 p.m.)
Oh, this was just something you were attending remotely?
Too bad that they used a bad photo - I think that the ones you have been using here look pretty good.
Strange that the power went out but at least it didn't interrupt your actual reading. [...]
Too bad that they used a bad photo - I think that the ones you have been using here look pretty good.
Strange that the power went out but at least it didn't interrupt your actual reading. [...]
The Broken Past (on Apr. 5, 2026, 12:24:00 a.m.)
Among the various unpleasant thoughts which dance through my mind on days of endorphin drop is one about wondering if I have hurt people, in the past. I also fear if I am hurting people, in the present, but I have so few interactions, these days, [...]
Re: Anthem for the Year 2000 (on Apr. 3, 2026, 12:38:47 a.m.)
I vaguely recall that song but didn't much care for it. While I liked Silverchair's first album, I think I was starting to lose interest in that part of the new rock genre by the time that second one came out and I found that his writing wasn't as [...]
Project Hail Mary was good (on Mar. 31, 2026, 10:51:02 p.m.)
Recent optimization work on OP has been going well (scraping the bottom of the barrel of what I wanted to improve or try, for this release), so I decided to go watch a movie, this afternoon (been a few years since I have done that). I had heard [...]
"Safe" Nihilism (on Mar. 31, 2026, 10:43:13 p.m.)
I think I am going to try to stay away from FetLife, now. I had moved here for most of my writing (leaving only some "screaming into the void" or "contemplating relationships" there), but now I think I should just completely close that door.
I [...]
I [...]
The Start of the Friction (on Mar. 29, 2026, 2:16:33 p.m.)
Went out to some new venue, last night, and it was quite good. The event was similar to many I have been to but this was a new venue so it was a bit of an exploration.
The bizarre thing is that I felt myself stressed out about various elements of [...]
The bizarre thing is that I felt myself stressed out about various elements of [...]
Re: Digging up the past (on Mar. 23, 2026, 11:55:54 p.m.)
I hope that you are able to get in touch with these people and that you get that place.
I have also always had difficulty with long friendships since I find that it is hard to maintain anything when you move or life responsibilities change.
I have also always had difficulty with long friendships since I find that it is hard to maintain anything when you move or life responsibilities change.