Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
Eva Unit 01 (on Nov. 15, 2025, 6:38:27 a.m.)
Grabbed this picture of some graffiti on the side of a building near my place, the other day. It was interesting that I only really noticed this while on a walk to contemplate how I felt after completing the series.
I guess such things do just [...]
I guess such things do just [...]
Re: Carrying Capacity (on Nov. 15, 2025, 6:19:53 a.m.)
Aww, that is sweet. Plus, you know that I am a sucker for wording like "and I am build, just like my kin, to withstand the storm"
Re: Carrying Capacity (on Nov. 11, 2025, 10:48:29 p.m.)
I am happy to hear that it seemed interesting. I can never tell if some of the things I think about are worth discussing or just too pedestrian.
Carrying Capacity (on Nov. 10, 2025, 5:52:56 p.m.)
Something I have thought about, over much of my adult life, is how terrible it is that some people categorize others and then mistreat or prejudge them, applying different standards based on _whatever_. Recently, however, I have been trying to [...]
Surprisingly Nice Comment (on Nov. 8, 2025, 7:54:48 p.m.)
Last night, a woman I have seen at the clubs for a while (technically one of the first people I met in the Toronto goth scene, several years ago - she is still regularly out) came up to me and told me that she thinks I am one of the best dancers in [...]
Re: Bluesky (on Nov. 8, 2025, 7:47:54 p.m.)
Hmm, I am actually concerned that their claims to decentralization (since the system is theoretically federated) are mostly just empty since I heard something about that functionality being a future consideration, although I am not sure what the [...]
Seeking Connection and Understanding (on Nov. 4, 2025, 10:00:00 p.m.)
I think it is kind of embarrassing that I find myself often watching those "reaction" videos, online, where people watch a movie or TV show and talk about it. I think that the main itch I expect this to scratch is some kind of connection. I feel [...]
Re: :) (on Nov. 3, 2025, 1:01:33 a.m.)
Crazy to believe that it has been 12 years but that sounds about right. Yeah, I didn't see this until some time on November 1.
"Komm, süsser Tod" and "Comfortably Numb" (on Oct. 29, 2025, 3:35:13 p.m.)
I find it odd that I keep finding the song, "Komm, süsser Tod", stuck in my head. The song, itself, isn't really my kind of thing but something about the scene it plays over in End of Evangelion makes it memorable.
In an odd way, I realized that [...]
In an odd way, I realized that [...]
Re: :) (on Oct. 29, 2025, 3:24:39 p.m.)
Well, I hope that I am of some use, somewhere. I know that it does calm my mind to know that you are one of the people who does care about me and indulges my bizarre ideas, like this system.
Re: Mediation Process in the Walking (on Oct. 29, 2025, 2:10:22 a.m.)
I have never been able to really get the knack for it, but I suspect I might be thinking about it in the wrong way.
Best I can do is get some shadow of what I think I should be looking for while doing other things (walking, baking, etc).
Best I can do is get some shadow of what I think I should be looking for while doing other things (walking, baking, etc).
Affirmative and Negative Definitions (on Oct. 26, 2025, 2:05:10 p.m.)
While out for a walk today, I realized that there is a bit of a pattern behind the thoughts I do not find helpful: They are all a statement of, or revulsion toward, things I am not.
Be this as trivial as jaywalking or as detached and dark as [...]
Be this as trivial as jaywalking or as detached and dark as [...]
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 25, 2025, 6:17:51 p.m.)
Sorry that I look so awkward there. I generally have a hard time thinking about what to do as the subject of a planned photograph. Even back when photos were more common, I always preferred the ones of people interacting or acting in more candid [...]
Mediation Process in the Walking (on Oct. 25, 2025, 6:16:11 p.m.)
I went for a walk, this afternoon, just around the block and park. First of all, I noticed a depiction of Eva Unit 01 in some graffiti not even a block from my building, which was surprising. Beyond that, however, I was trying to focus on my [...]
Stumbling back onto the path (on Oct. 24, 2025, 3:43:21 p.m.)
I feel like I have recently realized how far I am from who I was several years ago, and not in a good way. Instead of advancing into a more complete version of that person, I am the husk left over of that person when all the interesting or useful [...]
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 24, 2025, 3:29:35 p.m.)
That is true: I have a feeling that the only thing worse than stupid humans being hateful and antagonistic for reasons of tribalism and ignorance is a highly intelligent machine being agreeable for reasons of monopolizing access to your attention [...]
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 23, 2025, 10:58:18 p.m.)
Yeah, that seems to be where it currently lives. If you have access, I recommend checking it out since I did definitely find it engaging.
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 23, 2025, 10:55:37 p.m.)
Watched "End of Evangelion", today. It is definitely very good and I will need to think about it a bit and watch it again in a couple of days to feel as though I have a reasonable grasp of it.
I have heard people talk about these different [...]
I have heard people talk about these different [...]
Re: Work and writing update (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:52:15 p.m.)
Good to hear that the new job is seeming more engaging. Hopefully it becomes even more interesting once you have more to do on your own.
Aww, Korey sounds like he is doing well and still being energetic, at 16. That is good to hear. He is such a [...]
Aww, Korey sounds like he is doing well and still being energetic, at 16. That is good to hear. He is such a [...]
Re: Not sure if health concern or boredom (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:48:20 p.m.)
Well, I would be hesitant to immediately ignore criticisms from others since they can be illuminating. That said, many people lob such criticisms for their own benefit, not to help you understand yourself.
An honest person or a good friend is [...]
An honest person or a good friend is [...]
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:45:16 p.m.)
This was very good and I like it when you consume some media and you feel a need to research perspectives on the ideas or, back when this was possible, talk about the ideas raised with others. Luckily, this is the kind media people are still [...]
Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 18, 2025, 3:08:25 p.m.)
After finding the Blu-Ray for this series for rent at Bay Video (amazing place, by the way), I decided to finally start watching this old anime people reference all the time as one of the greats (up there with others from that era, like Ghost in the [...]
Not sure if health concern or boredom (on Oct. 14, 2025, 7:06:33 p.m.)
It seems as though I always feel tired, through much of the afternoon and evening, most days. The strange thing is that I can easily go out and walk for a few hours, feeling completely awake and comfortable while passing everyone I walk past, then [...]
Re: War is over! (on Oct. 14, 2025, 6:51:19 p.m.)
We will see how long this one lasts. It is a good first step but, unfortunately, it seems like that war has constantly been starting/stopping for much of my life.
I fear that, unless the underlying participants in the conflict change, this cycle [...]
I fear that, unless the underlying participants in the conflict change, this cycle [...]
Re: Terry Fox Run (on Oct. 11, 2025, 1:08:17 a.m.)
Nice to see that this is still going strong. I remember this being an annual tradition back when I was in elementary school and it was a good idea so it is good to see it is still there.