Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
Barriers of Diamond (on Nov. 5, 2026, 11:37:01 p.m.)
The mental poisons at work on me for these past several years seem to have metastasized into seemingly unbreakable barriers in my mind. I realized, a few weeks ago, that I now cannot initiate basic conversations with some kinds of people, even in [...]
Re: Happy Halloween from Juniper! (on Nov. 2, 2026, 10:20:58 p.m.)
Song is half-decent. That cat graphic is really cute, though.
I hope that you and the kitty had a good Halloween.
I hope that you and the kitty had a good Halloween.
Fear and Disconnection (on Nov. 2, 2026, 10:18:24 p.m.)
Today is another day where I was feeling down and wasn't getting much done. Well, I got some OP work and did some cooking but I was spending more time just doing nothing than I typically like.
Part of the problem is a general issue with not [...]
Part of the problem is a general issue with not [...]
Energy Fluctuations (on Oct. 31, 2026, 12:39:06 a.m.)
Today was another one of those days where I woke up early after not sleeping well (been a bunch of nights like that, recently). However, I still felt fine throughout the day and managed to get my various errands done and make some actual progress [...]
Low Points (on Oct. 27, 2026, 7:13:32 p.m.)
Today was odd in that I was in a strangely down mood, pretty much all day. I think that this is just being uninspired by this path-finding work in OP while looking at the madness online and knowing that I really can't last too much longer.
That [...]
That [...]
Old Foamy (on Oct. 26, 2026, 11:07:45 p.m.)
It is funny when you notice that old internet cartoons you first saw 15-20 years ago are still going, to this day.
It also just goes to show how much the world has changed and how lame, "safe", and "advertiser friendly" all internet content is, [...]
It also just goes to show how much the world has changed and how lame, "safe", and "advertiser friendly" all internet content is, [...]
A Vision of the Gate: Wind and Snow (on Oct. 24, 2026, 7:35:11 p.m.)
Oddly, I woke up with some vision of wind and snow hanging in my thoughts, this morning. It seemed to be the opening of an interesting opportunity. I will need to keep that in mind.
Other than that, today has been pretty uninteresting. These [...]
Other than that, today has been pretty uninteresting. These [...]
Re: Why can't I do this? (on Oct. 21, 2026, 11:43:13 p.m.)
Are you sending those back because you will never have the ability to use them or just because you can't right now and don't have the time to practice? I suspect that most of these things take some amount of practice, especially if you don't start [...]
Re: Lazy Sunday (on Oct. 18, 2026, 10:59:31 a.m.)
Aww, I hope that the kitty is happy and doing well!
It is bizarre how so much of modern culture has abandoned everything except for simple political slogans. I wonder why that happened so suddenly (this problem didn't exist 20 years ago but is [...]
It is bizarre how so much of modern culture has abandoned everything except for simple political slogans. I wonder why that happened so suddenly (this problem didn't exist 20 years ago but is [...]
Re: Crossing guard (on Oct. 18, 2026, 10:51:06 a.m.)
Ah, it looks like this issue may be resolved. I wouldn't be surprised if the VPN was causing the issue. Unless you are using a VPN to get around a specific issue, it is just going to be less efficient than the normal network and with a new [...]
Lingering Mistakes (on Oct. 11, 2026, 11:01:21 p.m.)
"When you stand before God, you cannot say, 'But I was told by others to do thus.' Or that, 'Virtue was not convenient at the time.' This will not suffice. Remember that."
-- King Baldwin IV (Kingdom of Heaven)
A great line from a great scene in a [...]
-- King Baldwin IV (Kingdom of Heaven)
A great line from a great scene in a [...]
Heavy Metal (on Oct. 11, 2026, 12:50:39 a.m.)
After hearing about this as something bizarre but somewhat funny and reasonably entertaining for about 30 years now, I finally ended up watching Heavy Metal, today.
Yes, I can say that it was bizarre, somewhat funny, and reasonably entertaining. [...]
Yes, I can say that it was bizarre, somewhat funny, and reasonably entertaining. [...]
Bars of Ice in the Memetic Prison (on Sep. 25, 2026, 2:35:23 p.m.)
I am dumped into the room from a small hatch in a ceiling with snaps shut before I even hit the ground.
A deep monotone voice plays over the loudspeakers dotted around the ceiling: "Your existence is offensive and wrong. Do not trouble others [...]
A deep monotone voice plays over the loudspeakers dotted around the ceiling: "Your existence is offensive and wrong. Do not trouble others [...]
Faux-Intellectual Over-Categorization and the End of Humanity (on Sep. 23, 2026, 12:16:56 p.m.)
I was recently watching some media review video and felt my stomach turning at the way some things were described. There was this consistent refrain of describing an idea, plot point, or relationship in terms of some sort of "negative trope". Most [...]
Various Media (on Sep. 22, 2026, 11:46:16 p.m.)
This week, I finished up the Foundation trilogy and my watch-through of Inuyasha.
Foundation was good but I understand why he eventually went back to the series since it just sort of "ends". Now, given how the story worked, I don't really think [...]
Foundation was good but I understand why he eventually went back to the series since it just sort of "ends". Now, given how the story worked, I don't really think [...]
Embrace the Boredom (on Sep. 19, 2026, 12:40:50 a.m.)
I find that, if I trace many of my problems/frustrations back far enough, I eventually find that they are ultimately caused by an avoidance of boredom.
I end up stuck in procrastination loops or succumb to distraction addiction far too often. [...]
I end up stuck in procrastination loops or succumb to distraction addiction far too often. [...]
Large Police Presence (on Sep. 14, 2026, 6:35:46 p.m.)
I went for a short walk just around the park and was surprised by the police presence. Apparently, that investor summit the Prime Minister is hosting starts at the AGO, this evening. The police are there for general security and due to concerns [...]
End of Summer Blood (on Sep. 1, 2026, 6:28:39 p.m.)
Went and donated blood again, today. 57 days since my last and this is the 3rd time this year (6th time this life). I think I am getting better at the muscle control since it took about 8 minutes, this time, which I think might be my best time. [...]
Illness and Recovery (on Aug. 28, 2026, 11:59:16 p.m.)
Last weekend, I got some kind of cold which I felt starting Thursday but had me feeling pretty crummy through Thursday night, all Friday, and Saturday morning. Then, I felt fine aside from a light cough in the mornings and evenings. So, I figured [...]
How to not Despair? (on Aug. 22, 2026, 12:58:12 a.m.)
I watched something today where someone was talking about the impossibility of happiness as all things to create it inevitably fade. However, this reminded me of the Buddha's enlightenment, as this is essentially the conundrum he was dealing with [...]
Thin Dreams (on Aug. 16, 2026, 6:45:14 p.m.)
It seems like more and more of what I used to be is drifting away from me. I am still not entirely sure why.
Even today, I find myself aware of a pleasant thought loop. This isn't unusual, as I would historically find my mind in such a state [...]
Even today, I find myself aware of a pleasant thought loop. This isn't unusual, as I would historically find my mind in such a state [...]
Haven't said much, lately (on Aug. 11, 2026, 10:38:05 p.m.)
... anywhere and in any context.
My world is oddly silent and it bothers me. Not only does it make all of life seem to be a pointless slog of unpleasantness and discomfort, but it has all sorts of other problems (or problems I suspect are [...]
My world is oddly silent and it bothers me. Not only does it make all of life seem to be a pointless slog of unpleasantness and discomfort, but it has all sorts of other problems (or problems I suspect are [...]
Re: Young Blood (on Aug. 5, 2026, 7:59:50 p.m.)
Yeah, I know a bunch of people who can't do to medication.
I wish more eligible people would since it isn't difficult or time consuming. It is more about availability and just remembering that it is something one should do.
I wish more eligible people would since it isn't difficult or time consuming. It is more about availability and just remembering that it is something one should do.
Uniformity of the Quantum Foam (on Aug. 4, 2026, 10:40:52 p.m.)
There have been a few times this summer, and today was one such example, when I noticed something odd. While sitting in the park, I looked up from my book and noticed that there were actually several people sitting around the same part of the park, [...]
First Impression Vibes (on Aug. 4, 2026, 12:39:18 a.m.)
I noticed something odd when I was out on Friday: An acquaintance of mine introduced me to some friend of hers and I very quickly got a strange vibe of "hostility" from this new woman. It was something about her voice and word selection which gave [...]