Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
The Broken Past (on Apr. 5, 2026, 12:24:00 a.m.)
Among the various unpleasant thoughts which dance through my mind on days of endorphin drop is one about wondering if I have hurt people, in the past. I also fear if I am hurting people, in the present, but I have so few interactions, these days, [...]
Re: Anthem for the Year 2000 (on Apr. 3, 2026, 12:38:47 a.m.)
I vaguely recall that song but didn't much care for it. While I liked Silverchair's first album, I think I was starting to lose interest in that part of the new rock genre by the time that second one came out and I found that his writing wasn't as [...]
Project Hail Mary was good (on Mar. 31, 2026, 10:51:02 p.m.)
Recent optimization work on OP has been going well (scraping the bottom of the barrel of what I wanted to improve or try, for this release), so I decided to go watch a movie, this afternoon (been a few years since I have done that). I had heard [...]
"Safe" Nihilism (on Mar. 31, 2026, 10:43:13 p.m.)
I think I am going to try to stay away from FetLife, now. I had moved here for most of my writing (leaving only some "screaming into the void" or "contemplating relationships" there), but now I think I should just completely close that door.
I [...]
I [...]
The Start of the Friction (on Mar. 29, 2026, 2:16:33 p.m.)
Went out to some new venue, last night, and it was quite good. The event was similar to many I have been to but this was a new venue so it was a bit of an exploration.
The bizarre thing is that I felt myself stressed out about various elements of [...]
The bizarre thing is that I felt myself stressed out about various elements of [...]
Re: Digging up the past (on Mar. 23, 2026, 11:55:54 p.m.)
I hope that you are able to get in touch with these people and that you get that place.
I have also always had difficulty with long friendships since I find that it is hard to maintain anything when you move or life responsibilities change.
I have also always had difficulty with long friendships since I find that it is hard to maintain anything when you move or life responsibilities change.
No sides, no labels, no reductions, no judgments (on Mar. 23, 2026, 11:52:49 p.m.)
I miss the days of having long-form discussions with 1 or 2 other people who really wanted to dive deeply into an idea and really discuss it. This could be technical, it could be about media, it could be about an event, it could be about a pure [...]
No Masters on the Lonely Road (on Mar. 14, 2026, 2:50:32 p.m.)
A few years ago, I lamented that there were no masters of my craft, from whom I could learn. The only way to improve was to delve more deeply into my ideas, alone.
The problem with doing this is that it usually isn't improvement, at least not [...]
The problem with doing this is that it usually isn't improvement, at least not [...]
The Intensity of Non-Feelings (on Mar. 11, 2026, 2:36:37 a.m.)
For the past couple of weeks, I have had a bizarre feeling. It is the same as I have felt before (overwhelming boredom and futility) but in a strangely more thorough or "deep" way.
OP work is slow-going as the motivation is hard to find in large [...]
OP work is slow-going as the motivation is hard to find in large [...]
Warm Weather to Break the Cycle (on Mar. 8, 2026, 10:21:16 p.m.)
One of the reasons why I am looking forward to the warm weather is that I do miss going for long walks through the city on hot days (in the winter, the wind is often too unpleasant, and all the clothing leads to overheating). It is getting warm [...]
Re: 8 years ago today. (on Mar. 5, 2026, 11:44:46 p.m.)
That is a neat shot. I have heard that the place is interesting but haven't been there, myself (not typically the kind of thing which interests me much, for whatever reason).
Re: Awaiting Warm Weather (on Mar. 5, 2026, 11:43:43 p.m.)
Yes, not yet shorts and Vibrams weather but we are definitely climbing out of winter.
Awaiting Warm Weather (on Mar. 1, 2026, 8:33:14 p.m.)
I find myself often thinking about how long it will be until I can comfortably resume my long walks through the city. I suspect something like 1-2 months, but I can't ever be fully sure. It doesn't happen all at once and I never remember it [...]
Re: Cuddle Party in Toronto (on Feb. 19, 2026, 2:23:45 p.m.)
I remember hearing about things like this, years ago. On one hand, I like the idea behind it but, on the other hand, I can't really imagine being involved.
While I do want a world of more casual physical touch, I mostly want a world where I can [...]
While I do want a world of more casual physical touch, I mostly want a world where I can [...]
Re: The Dark Crystal. (on Feb. 17, 2026, 1:40:26 a.m.)
I also didn't see that movie until my late 20s, I think. I thought it was good but definitely not as fun and memorable as something like Labyrinth.
Well-done puppet work, though, and definitely a good kids movie.
Well-done puppet work, though, and definitely a good kids movie.
Re: Happy Friday the 13th. (on Feb. 13, 2026, 2:52:35 p.m.)
Ha, nice. Since this is February, and not a leap year, we also get Friday the 13th next month.
I still wonder if that old superstition which eliminated the 13th floor from buildings still exists (not sure if floors ending in "4" has replaced it or [...]
I still wonder if that old superstition which eliminated the 13th floor from buildings still exists (not sure if floors ending in "4" has replaced it or [...]
Re: I hate Kijiji. (on Feb. 12, 2026, 3:11:48 p.m.)
Wow, that is crazy that you are having so much difficulty in terms of them being snatched up quickly. I would have expected the issue being around scrutiny of application or difficulty in physically transporting the cat or maybe in verifying its [...]
Widelands - an excellent open source clone (on Feb. 12, 2026, 3:08:17 p.m.)
For some reason, my mind recently got onto the track of old video games I miss from back in the day. One of my favourite city builder / real-time strategy games is Settlers II. Unfortunately, the old games in the Settlers series are only available [...]
Re: Unpleasant Thoughts (on Feb. 10, 2026, 3:38:13 p.m.)
This "band of misfits" was more me thinking in terms of Robin Hood. I guess I am looking for my Sherwood Forest, where the questionable authorities of the outside world have little power.
You are right about mainstream culture and my wording was [...]
You are right about mainstream culture and my wording was [...]
Re: Testing on Kubo 0.39 (on Feb. 10, 2026, 3:29:58 p.m.)
Hmm, I wonder what issue you were having, since everything seems to be working, now.
There are a few subtle things I should look at if I get back into making modifications to Cacophony so I will think about what could make the UI more obviously [...]
There are a few subtle things I should look at if I get back into making modifications to Cacophony so I will think about what could make the UI more obviously [...]
Unpleasant Thoughts (on Feb. 10, 2026, 12:07:37 a.m.)
Tonight was another night with unpleasant thoughts dancing around my head. There are a few areas where things really worry me, these days, but I am powerless to do anything about these (and the mainstream culture's demand that we all "care about [...]
Re: Jeff and Korey (10 years ago today) (on Feb. 3, 2026, 5:22:47 p.m.)
Aww, I do miss getting to see that little kitty. He was always so energetic and quick to switch into play-fighting mode.
Re: "The Bride!" (on Jan. 30, 2026, 5:15:54 p.m.)
I am really not sure where this movie will go. I don't know much about the source material or if this is only from an earlier movie (in which case it isn't too concrete). On one hand, it seems like an interesting story we haven't seen anyone do [...]
Re: Interesting poem. (on Jan. 29, 2026, 12:04:51 p.m.)
This thing about colour names reminded me about how English didn't used to have a name for "orange" until the fruit was imported (it used to be something like "yellow-red").
Somehow, this got my mind going down the path of "impossible colours" with [...]
Somehow, this got my mind going down the path of "impossible colours" with [...]
Re: Orange - poem by me. (on Jan. 29, 2026, 11:55:14 a.m.)
Aww, I hope that writing things like this is helping you through such a difficult loss.