Mood and Gazing into the Future

Looking back on my life, I realize that much of how I feel within a given point in time is based on what I think is on the horizon.

I suspect that this is ultimately related to how I have never been a "happy person". It is probably also why I have [...]

Re: Photo from poetry reading.

I hope that you enjoyed giving the reading, at least. It sounds like a nice way to get out demonstrate your creative output.

Nuit Blanche and the last warm days

I tried to get out to see a bit of Nuit Blanche, last night, but I was tired and it was crowded so I didn't go far. Really, just up and down the street nearest me which was hosting some of it. Oddly, most of what I saw were just video displays and [...]

Social "fit", egg shell fears, and specific linguistic irritations

Over the past few years (well, several really, but more acutely in recent years), I have been getting a general sense that I no longer "fit" anywhere, socially. I used to feel at home among software developers or goths, and I felt like I was [...]

Re: Tubby Nugget Phonecall

Yeah, the ones you have posted here are good: Simple, short, and cute.

I am ok. I hope that things are good on your end.

Pet Peeves in Non-technical Data Science

I was watching some video talking about survey results related to Project Zomboid Build42 direction today and it reminded me of something I have found annoying for a while: Lack of standard deviation when discussing scored survey results.

I have [...]

That time of the year?

For whatever reason, I have been incredibly tired all today. Part of this is probably that I slept poorly last night (probably due to being tired all yesterday) but I wonder if the rest of it is related to the cold weather, my mental state, or [...]

Re: Building Programming Languages

Thinking about "what is a programming language" gets more interesting whenever you also ask "what is an interpreter" and you eventually realize interesting things like how a user interface is an interpreter for the language of human actions. [...]

Re: "Let 'em Cook" versus Becoming an n-degree Meta-tool

Yeah, most of the push to make things "safe" is usually just a push to create a police state or some other dystopian control system.

They say that the ends justify the means but, not only do I think that is a dangerous way of thinking, I also don't [...]

Re: Not a logical solution?!?

Yeah, it is small and cute.

"Let 'em Cook" versus Becoming an n-degree Meta-tool

An idea which has been bothering me lately is the question of how much of what happens within public visibility represents an actual attempt to make something happen versus an attempt to make the anti-something happen.

To sketch what I mean, [...]

What is the missing connection?

Last night's outing was reasonably good but I still felt that same unpleasantness in the back of my mind, dragging me down, which has become all too common. There is a general sense that I "don't belong" (not just socially, but within the shape and [...]

Re: Fixed Cacophony on my own this time

The modern push to require "verification" is something which always worries me.

On a philosophical level, many of the cultural ideas we now consider essential started with people speaking out anonymously so I think making that impossible is a [...]

That Strange Feeling of Isolation and Even Stranger Inceptions

For the past several days, I have felt worse than usual. I am not sure what is suddenly shifting things, but I can tell that I am having a rougher time than recent days. I almost feel as though the sense of eternal despair is creeping up around [...]

Re: Fixed Cacophony on my own this time

Hmm, that is an odd one but I suspect that the update forced Cacophony to stop while saving back state so it corrupted it. Good to hear that you were able to patch that up. I keep thinking I should do something to improve that but the difficulty [...]

Discussions of Art and Meaning

After completing Serial Experiments Lain, I found myself needing more ideas around this. The anime has a story, but it is heavier in ideas than plot or even character development.

So, I looked around online and found a few video essays arguing [...]

Re: Help? I can quote you if you would like.

Sorry, this finally came through today (IPFS visibility is odd).

It is hard to come up with something which wasn't said before, as the useful answers are as timeless as the question.

My thoughts around this centre around an unholy union of [...]

Lain, Techno-optimism of the 90s, and Scarcity Imparting Value

I managed to track down Serial Experiments Lain and, since I only watched the first few episodes back in university, I decided I should actually watch it through.

Something which struck me about the first episode was actually the scene with her [...]

Re: TV show and movie recommendations

Sandman definitely looks very good. I have seen some clips from it, etc. For years, I have heard that the graphic novels are great (was thinking of picking some up at a bookstore's clearance sale, a few weeks ago, but they only had later ones in [...]

Re: Another chance.

I got a credit card a long time ago but I was mostly using eBay before I had that or before most people could even accept them (this was where I first saw PayPal). Back in those days, you needed to courier a money order to the seller and then they [...]

Re: To Rule and to Serve

I was thinking of putting up a basic site where I could just stick all the information about events in my crowd, since event promotion is so lazy and ineffective these days, due to social media. Then, when I mentioned it to someone else I know, [...]

Re: Not completely doomed.

Yeah, it is annoying but seems to just be how the network functions when it isn't replicated too aggressively. I didn't see this response until earlier today on my other machine.

To Rule and to Serve

I was recently thinking that there is probably something I could do to be useful within the scope of at least one of my interests. I am just not sure if it would be useful enough to be worth it.

There is also that annoying problem that, when you [...]

Re: Crafting a Mythology (part 2)

Yeah, this is trying to figure out the new things to make exploration more interesting. The enchantment stuff is now in place (they can exist, but can't be created by users in this release) and I am still working out the details of the portal [...]

Re: Another chance.

Ah, I remember being really into eBay back in the late 90s. I bought a few laptops and a musical instrument (hammered dulcimer) back then. I don't think I have used it since the turn of the millennium, or so.