Despite not going out, this weekend, I still ended up feeling rough. Slept terribly on Friday night so I was a complete zombie all Saturday. Slept fine Saturday night (somehow) but still felt a little out of it on Sunday.

For some reason, I am otherwise not feeling too inspired, the past little while. I know the next steps for OP (to get the block mover to also be able to push creatures, etc), but motivation is difficult. I feel as though there is difficulty finding purpose or joy in anything, these days, since I have such sparse connections to humanity and a general feeling that there isn't much future left.

I also find that my own internal image of myself is a bit different, these days. Whenever I relax my mind and envision how/where I am, I am meditating alone while sitting next to a small campfire in a forest at twilight. I wonder what that means.

Hopefully the social option for next weekend I am waiting for materializes, since I would prefer it to the existing option. Still, at least it looks like there will be something to do.

I do, after all, need to get out among humans, even if I feel as though no future connections are to be found.

The future may be short, but inaction can only fill its small volume with regret,
...Nights