Thinking back to a few days ago, I find myself disappointed in some of the things I was saying, when out drinking. Sure, this was said quietly to someone I trust, but I found that the things I was saying were oddly ugly and judgmental. To be clear, they weren't untrue, but it does bother me to think that I think those things and can say them aloud.

I guess it is human and not thinking them would either require some kind of self-deception or just an insistence on not thinking about much of anything. Still, it isn't a pleasant feeling when one is aware of that element of themselves.

Either way, I need to be reminded of more of the things I like, people I think highly of, and the engagements which make me feel like a valuable human.

Probably not a real concern but it still bothers me,
...Nights