Fear and Powerlessness

Looking at the news and the state of the world, I see a lot of fear. The fear isn't so much fear, itself, but a fear which comes from powerlessness. The idea that we are all so far from the means to control our own lives that all we know is fear [...]

Re: Take this moment, you deserve it.

This kind of thing is always a good idea. I once heard that the only verified way to improve your sense of well-being is to be sure to periodically think about what makes you feel grateful.

I wonder how the asteroid would be "gone". I know that [...]

Re: Testing my key.

Finally seeing this now. Sorry about that but it looked like a bizarre IPFS ism where sometimes some nodes just won't get to see some pieces of data. I think it is how they try to distribution the index where you essentially can end up putting [...]

Re: Walking in the Snow

The Expanse?

I am not sure about "better". Season 1 was very good. By this point, I have watched seasons 1-5 and they are all good. For reasons I can't remember, I think season 3 was my favourite and 5 was probably the most tense (yet strangely [...]

Re: When you're polyamorous on Valentine's Day

I haven't seen family in a while but I have been in touch over text and calls, recently.

Good to hear that the house is getting sorted out. I hope that replacing that ID from your wallet isn't too rough. I always find things like that leaving me [...]

Walking in the Snow

I got a call that my blu-rays for The Expanse came in, today. Realizing I didn't have any other afternoon plans, aside from connecting and testing the OctoberProject fire logic, I decided to take the walk.

The walk to Bay Video is roughly 40 [...]

Re: Ill Again

I definitely find less excitement in wanting to watch it. I watched the first episode and thought it looked pretty good. I should continue but my mind doesn't settle on it. With Lexx, that was never an issue as it was something I found I could [...]

Something to look forward to

I really feel like a big problem I have is that I have nothing to look forward to.

On the work front, I don't think I have real prospects. Combine that with the lack of in-person work going on, the lack of problems worth solving, and how so many [...]

Re: New Draft - 1798108309

While I always thought the world could use more melodramatic wording (I am a goth, after all), I know that I tend to be very to the point in text (partly due to SMS limits but also my dislike of touchscreens for typing).

Ill Again

This is strange. Historically, I only get a bad cold once every 2-3 years but this year I got one at the beginning on January and now at the beginning of February. I blame the lack of normal human contact: Either being alone or sometimes in large [...]

Fitness for Human Interaction

For some time, I have been noticing that I am becoming "stranger". I blame this on general isolation and lack of humanization. I don't really know how to interact with people, these days, so I just seem to intensely babble or just generally act [...]

Re: This hits close

I do wonder how we got to this place where they needed to make such dramatic and sudden changes to international student enrolment. I wonder if the issues had been growing for a long time, were sudden, or were not directly related (like if it was a [...]

Re: Licensing

I hope that this is progressing well and that you get this licensing issue sorted out. Good to hear that the MRI results were normal.

Re: Silly Meme

Congrats! I hope that getting started goes smoothly and that the job is good.

Re: Illness finally caught me

Ear was really plugged so I went to get it flushed on Thursday. That seemed to work (I feel "clearer") but I still can't really hear out of my right side. Not sure what that is about. They did say my other ear looks like it is still slightly [...]

Re: Silly Meme

When I looked it up, I found a song called "So Sick". I haven't heard it and that doesn't sound very promising.

Re: Excited about Job Prospect

Hopefully that goes well. Good luck!

Re: 2024 in review...

That was a big and difficult year for you so hopefully 2025 is off to a better start.

Illness finally caught me

After weeks of just sort of being tired, but not actually getting sick, I think it finally caught up with me, last night.

A few hours before I planned to head out to a monthly event I like, I suddenly felt excruciating ear pain. I tried flushing [...]

Re: All of us Strangers

Hard to get much of a sense of it from just the trailer but it looks potentially interesting.

Re: This new-ish (2 month old) playlist rocks

Ha, not bad! I hope that your holidays are going well.

Re: Such tiredness

I was wondering that, too. It seems like a bunch of people I know have been sick with something pretty rough within the past few weeks.

I assume it is either that, a lot of overcast days leading up to the shortest day (which I guess is today), or [...]

OP on track

Managed to get a lot done on OctoberPeaks, today. I think all the work required for the RC0 build is complete so I should be able create the release, tomorrow. I hoped to get it done today until I realized I planned to introduce a sky in this [...]

Back on track

I managed to find a way to take of the aforementioned "short-cuts" and that seemed to provide a big win (that benchmark is now down to 17.6 seconds). I suspect that the real-world benefit will be even greater since it involves removing a [...]

Re: Such tiredness

Still feeling oddly tired, all the time.

On top of that, I think that the initial results showing an 80% win seemed to have been a bug related to a bogus write-back in a prototype resulting the algorithm exiting earlier without being complete. So [...]